Current Mood: My split lip is annoying me

Aha... Ha. My job is killing me, pretty much. I managed to ask for lower hours because I can't handle full time, but I'm still going to struggle and I'm not very excited. At least my coworkers are nice, and so are customers. I saw a 4-day old baby at work yesterday and he was the tiniest little thing, and a redheaded kid asked me "Why do you work here?" which... in my brain I was like "Beats the fuck out of me, kid" but out loud I just kinda stumbled out that I have a job to do before he ran off after his family.

I think I'm in a bout of art block caused by the stress and exhaustion of work. I just can't get any art to look good. I'm sure it'll go away but it's pissing me off because I really, really want to draw and everything just looks like ass to me. Maybe I should do something that isn't drawing like coding or writing or something.

Finally, I have an appointment on the 20th for my knee problems. I hope they take me seriously. And I kind of want to bring up that I've been hallucinating bugs since I started this job. It's new a new hallucination but it's been the worst it's been since I was in middle school. I keep seeing ants, spiders and wriggly things. I'm glad I can ask my boyfriend to tell me something isn't real because I can trust him, but at the same time I always worry that it'll happen bad when he's not here and I'll just be trapped by bugs around me.

As for goals, I've kind of given up on the whole HOME transfer. I'm definitely going to regret it later, but I realize I like having my Pokemon in their original games more than I do HOME, so they're gonna be staying. I'm just going to back up my saves so I don't lose them.