I might update this later when it's not midnight and I have more to say. I pick up my needles in the morning and I might have an interview with a grocery store nearby. I started my period and every part of it was so bad; my brother's girlfriend asked if I needed to go to the hospital but they won't do a damn thing for me so I said no thank you.

In other news, I finished all of my Fakemon designs for my next YouTube video. I just have to work on the script and edit it all together. I want to try and have it out before the middle of September!

In other other news, um... Does anyone have any tips for finding out if you have more alters in your system than you thought? I'm wondering if there's more of us than I thought; we used to be a lot more numerous, but a huge chunk of us faded, fused, and went dormant. Sometimes I have the feeling in my gut that there's more of us I don't know about and I want to find out.

Later in the day update: they didnt have my testosterone. again. they told me to come back tomorrow. again. im tired. i think im just going to go the fuck to bed. they told me to come back later on thursday. they didnt have it. i came back on friday, they didnt have it and told me to wait until today, three days later. and they still dont have it. and theyre telling me to wait. my boyfriend tells me not to get paranoid. i cant help it. he says they aren't doing this on purpose but what if they are? what if they arent putting in the request at all? what if they trashed it? what if they just keep telling me to wait forever because they dont want to give it to me.